One hard lesson I had to learn in working life was having to accept people come and go. I learned that in the real world but somehow this hurt just as much. I prepared myself 4 months ago to set a boundary between my personal and working life. Even had people telling me to never 100% trust people at work and Joel said the same to me. He even added “including me” at the end. But funnily four months later I find it hard to accept the fact that he’s leaving. Maybe I’m just being dramatic but I’ve only felt like this towards petty crushes or ex best friends. Never towards a colleague, someone I’d sit next to every weekday for 9 hours.
The father of the group, friend, brother, and occasional child when it comes to Hot Wheels - I genuinely wish you nothing but the best in life. Sorry, this post took a while. It was hard to compose myself now that I’m home, alone, and finally processing the fact that there will no longer be “I’ll see you tomorrow” or “Let’s go get coffee” from you. I know you know how great you are when it comes to writing and work so I won’t even bother. I know you won’t forget us at FC, but I hope you know that I won’t forget you. And not just in a polite way, but in a way that you (and Mahi) were literally the first people to help me jumpstart my career. That’s not just something one can easily forget about.
Anyways, there’s no point saying too much I’ll see you Thursday kan
A year ago I would've stated I don't have any regrets in life. However, one year later, I do have a handful of them. To start, there are the things that I've done. If I could turn back the hands of time, I would tell myself not to do certain things that I have done. nothing particularly significant that may set off a chain reaction. But enough to make a difference in the way things turned out. It's possible that things would have turned out differently if I hadn't seen my friends that night or if I had opted to stay in my apartment instead. I could have prevented myself from coming into contact with certain people, as well as a great deal of stress throughout my life. Perhaps the outcome would have been different if I hadn't asked for help in the first place. It's not that I'm not appreciative of the way things are right now, but as I mentioned before, there isn't a whole lot that could create a significant change in my life.
And then there's the kind of regret that makes you wonder what might have been if things had gone differently. how different my life would have been having I only made the decision to do it back when I had the chance. Surprisingly, the regret linked with something you did is quite distinct from the regret associated with something you did not do. If you don't take action on something, you'll end yourself dwelling on the past and wondering what you could have done differently to make things better for yourself.
In any case, neither one of them can be altered by your actions. You simply cannot travel through time in order to prevent yourself from engaging in a particular activity or coming into contact with a particular person. You also can't travel back in time to tell your past self what you should have done because that's not possible.
As I've already mentioned, here I am, ruminating about things that I just have no control over.
