Things are getting worse in my head.

A little over a month ago, I could not have been happier with how things were going; I simply do not comprehend how they could have been any worse. Not in actuality, but in my head, they were.

Things are pretty much the same as before; I work during the week, and then I come home and spend the weekend holed up in my room. However, my head was giving me the impression that I was deteriorating in some way. My job was no longer as interesting as it used to be, and the length of my weekends was decreasing, despite the fact that I dreaded going in each day only to feel empty. I've had a few challenges to overcome.

Although I did meet some new individuals, say goodbye to some others, and get back in touch with others, overall I felt like things were pretty much the same as they are normally. It's possible that the pain of recalling what happened exactly a year ago is the reason why I'm sabotaging myself, or it might be that I'm just fooling myself into thinking that things are worse in my head by gaslighting myself.